Says Margarita: At the end of winter, I broke my arm. A fracture of the hand was difficult, I was offered to perform an operation and implant a titanium plate. And although my case is far from the first, nevertheless it seemed that my body is a kind of object of scientific experiment, a result that contains a part of unpredictability. Can I trust modern medicine in general and a particular doctor in particular? For two months I practically did not leave the house, remaining alone. The body ceased to seem to me as a whole. The hand felt like something separate from me. The inability to control what was happening caused a sense of anxiety. I photographed myself on the phone, on the camera, trying to express through the images that arose inside of me, internal mental states. Discover the fears in which I was afraid to admit to myself, and thereby try to stay in the role of an outside observer.
Margarita Khatmullina – a researcher and an artist working with photography and other media based in Ufa, Russia.